A Change Will Do You Good

I am smack dab in the middle of reading Beth Moore's newest book "So Long, Insecurity". It's really amazing, and makes me look at struggles I face in an entirely new way. Tonight as I was reading, Beth (or Mrs. Beth as Jessica likes to put it :) ) was talking about changes we go through and how every change is pre-determined by God according to His good and perfect will. She stated that if we want our life to match His will, we must change.

She says:

"The truth is, God uses change to change us. He doesn't use it to destroy us or to distract us but to coax us to the next level of character, experience, compassion, and destiny..... What will ever cause us to move on to the next place He has for us if something doesn't happen to change the way we feel about where we are?"

Also, get this.... As an example of change she uses the stock market crash, a bankruptcy, and a SKIING ACCIDENT. I read those words and said "Seriously God?" Wow. I want to go check every copy of her book and see if each copy says the same thing or if God specifically put that in MY copy. What does a skiing accident have to do with the stock market crashing or a bankruptcy? Nothing, except for the fact that that skiing accident completely changed my world. My accident set off a trigger of events that only God could orchestrate to turn me into the woman that I have become, am still becoming.

Then she goes on to talk about emotions. About how some people just "feel" things more significantly than others do. I'm beginning to think me and Beth could become best friends here. I mean, could I just have dinner with her? I think she could give me so much life altering advice. She describes me to a T.

I have said it before, but I definitely FEEL things. My joys are over bounding, my sorrows crippling. I think I go through every human emotion on a daily basis. I cry during any TV show in which it shows human suffering, joy, triumph, or loss. I hate to see old men eating alone in restaurants and will think about them for days afterwards feeling so much sadness for how lonely they must be. I can't read obituaries in the paper, you would think that I knew every single person personally. I get incredibly overjoyed when I see any man buying flowers. I FEEL. But that also makes me feel like I am crazy sometimes. I can be in the depths of depression one moment and laughing the next. But God made me this way purposely. And sometimes when I'm having a particularly hard day, I remind myself that it's good to feel because that means I'm alive.