It's always the Love songs

Why is it when you are hurting that love songs seem to play constantly on the radio?  I also never knew how many love songs I have on my ipod.  It's ridiculous and incredibly annoying.  But Taylor Swift has some really good lyrics.  I thought this one was so perfect:

Say you're sorry that face of an angel breaks out just when you want it to.
And I pace back and forth because all this time because I honestly  believed in you.
Holding on the days drag on,
Stupid girl I should have known

I'm not a princess, 
This ain't a fairytale.
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
lead her up the stairwell.
This ain't Hollywood, this is a small town,
I was a dreamer before you and you let me down.
Now it's too late for you and your white horse,
To come around.

Maybe I'm naive I got lost in your eyes,
I never really had a chance.
I had so many dreams about you and me,
Happy Endings,
Now I know.

I'm not a princess this ain't a fairytale,
I'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell.
This ain't  Hollywood this is a small town
I was a dreamer before you and you let me down.
Now it's too late for you and your white horse,
To come around.

There you on your knees
Begging for forgiveness
Begging for me
Just like I always wanted
But I'm so sorry

I'm not your princess,
This ain't our fairytale,
I'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well.
This is a big world,
That was a small town,
Now it's too late for you and your white horse to catch me now.

Try and catch me now.


I am doing another post because I saw this quote on a friend on mine's blog and thought it was just so perfect.

"God, that was strange to see you again, introduced by a friend of a friend - smiled and said yes I think we've met before... i'll write you a postcard, i'll send you the news from the house down the road, from real love. Live though this and you won't look back...There's one thing I want to say so I'll be brave - you were what I wanted, I gave what I gave. I'm not sorry I met you, I'm not sorry it's over, I'm not sorry there's nothing to say. I'm not sorry there's nothing to save."


Let me just say that I feel incredibly overwhelmed that so many people are getting married right now.  And it really bothers me that since Brad and I have been dating for almost 2 years everyone expects us to be getting engaged soon.  Even when I tell them we are not, they still don't believe me or think something is seriously wrong with us.  Is there anything wrong with wanting to be established in life before we decide to tie the knot?  Come on, I wanna be able to go on a NICE honeymoon!   I guess this is what I get for living in the South.  
On to better things, I went by a printing place to get Summer's shower invitations printed.  They told me that the invitations would cost $60.00 for only 20 invitations.  Hello! Don't think so, I will be going to a different printing place.  Why so expensive?  It's just paper!
Brad is having a super busy, super stressful week with finals and projects.  I hate it when he has weeks like these because that means I go on the back burner :(  Oh well, school is way more important than me right now!
So I seriously have had these 2 online classes since March and have not gotten very far on them at all.  First of all, I don't know why anyone expected me to take Arkansas History online.  I hate history enough, I am not going to be super productive about doing it on my own time.  Hopefully I will get an urge to be uber productive and get them done sometime before I start summer school, but as of right now it doesn't look like that's happening.  
I went tanning yesterday, for 6 minutes.  I got burned.  Seriously?  I was only in there 6 minutes!  This is what I get for having LOVELY fair skin.   Have I told y'all how wonderful it is to be able to drive myself places?  Because it is WONDERFUL!




Today was my first day to drive again!! Let me tell you, it was WONDERFUL!  I began by driving around my metropolis of a neighborhood.  Seriously, I had not realized how much they have built up the back of Greystone.  It's HUGE!!!  I think over half of Cabot must live in Greystone now, there are so many houses!  There were a lot of beautiful houses in the back too.  Brad and I drive around a lot and just look at houses, he lets me dream :) Haha.  So after I drove around my neighborhood I decided to venture to Sonic.  I missed happy hour by 4 minutes and couldn't convince myself to buy a drink for double the price then what I would have gotten it at happy hour for so I didn't get anything.  Now this is really strange of me b/c normally I really would care.  Then I went and tanned.  So tanning is quite an adventure for me because it takes me a little while to get undressed and everything.  So here I am undressed and laying on the tanning bed and I try to push the button to make it start.  It doesn't start.  Then I realize that the lady forgot to put the minutes on the bed.  So I then preceded to get dressed again, and go tell her she forgot to put the minutes on my bed.  haha.  My tanning experience turned out to be a long excursion!  
Right now I am waiting on my mom to get home so we can eat dinner and watch American Idol.  I can't wait to see Kris Allen preform tonight.  Such a cutie!


Christi's Post

Christi sent me this facebook post and it seriously made me laugh and be reminiscent all at the same time.  So I copied it on here so everyone could read it :)

dear jennifer, it's finals weeks and normally you're hear to freak out too, but alas, you are not this time. so if anyone asks, this is what i wish..
1. that the weird chemical closet in d's room would still be a safe haven where we could figure stuff out
2. that our problems would be so small that we could sort them out in a closet
3. that ice cream didn't have calories. i really feel like this would help my finals week stress level
4. that our parents didn't expect us to be adults and it would be completely acceptable to lay by the pool and eat french fries and beer catsup from the clubhouse
5. that french fries and beer catsup didnt have calories
6. that rolling people's houses was ok to do at 20. I also feel like this could relieve some stress
7. that our friends would stop getting married, getting big internships, ect. i'm starting to feel like a slacker.
8. that a batch of cookies could still boost my grade in world civ. world civ..seriously, who the hell cares about history
9. that matters of the heart could be solved by sitting in our bedroom floor with junk food.
10. it seems i've looped back around to wishing junk food didn't have calories, so i think that means I'm done.


Monday Monday

I thought I would put a picture of Tressa in today's post because I am SO proud of her!  As you know she won Miss Arkansas-International, but she worked so so hard for this title.  Proof that hard work and dedication do pay off!  She will be going to Chicago this summer to compete for the title of Miss International.  I wish I could be there to watch her!  
Well the semester and winding down and this is both good and bad.  Good because it means that soon I will be in Fayetteville and summer school will start!  Bad because that also means that Brad leaves for camp soon.  I'm really excited for him to go because he loves camp so much, but I'm going to miss him so much :)  Of course, it will be better because I will get to see him every Saturday now, instead of every other weekend.  
I can't believe Kristin and Jon are actually engaged.  It is soo weird to think that we are of the age now where our friends are getting married.  How does time fly so fast?  It seems like just yesterday I was graduating from High School and now I am about to be a Senior in college!
For my education practicum,  I have to have 60 hours of job shadowing experience.  So this week, I am going to go shadow Mr. D for a few hours.  This should be fun!  I also have to think of a chemistry project to do with high school kids for my Organic class.  If ya'll think of anything let me know!  I'm thinking about something like independent learning or something.  You know where you pick a topic and conduct your own experiment in that topic.    Well this is all I have for now!



Zac Efron

My mom and I went and saw 17 again today.  SO good!  Definitely worth going to see if you haven't because Zac Efron is such a cutie!  I told Brad today that I was allowed to have a crush on Zac since he has a major crush on Miley (never mind the fact that she is totally illegal for him.  hah!)  I also went and got some adorable flip flops, a white and black pair!  I'm so glad that the flip flops with the backs on them are in style again this year because that's the only kind I can wear!  Mom and I then went to Texas Roadhouse.  YUM!   I seriously ate like 4 rolls because their Cinnamon butter is to die for.  Love it!  I also went and tanned for my first time today.  I was trying not to because I don't want it to mess up my lovely scar, but I couldn't take it anymore.  I'm practically translucent.  So I bought the highest SPF I could find, which amazingly enough is now 100+ and put it on my scar.  I know that seems like an oxymoron, but oh well!  I also covered it with a towel, so hopefully it won't get messed up :)  The rest of the day I am going to paint my nails and work on some school/scholarship stuff.  Glorious!  Hope you all are having a lovely Sunday :)



Kristin and Jon are ENGAGED!!

Jon finally popped the question and asked Kristin to marry him.  I say finally because he has had the ring for about a month and I have known he was going to ask her for about a month.  Now anyone who knows me knows this is a very dangerous thing, since I am really bad at keeping secrets.  So I was threatened with my life not to tell, and I mean it would have been really awful of me if I did let it slip.  It was funny though because it seems like every single time I saw Kristin  we would talk about weddings or how ready she was for Jon to propose.  I was so awesome at playing along!!  Her ring is gorgeous too :)  I'm really excited for them!  


Engaged Soon?

I just felt the need to post this.  On the side of facebook there is this add that always pops up saying "Are you getting engaged soon?" .   No I'm not but thank you for reminding me of it every single day when I log on to facebook.  You truly make my day.

End of Physical Therapy

I received a weird phone call today.  My doctor's office called and he said that he believed I would heal 100% completely and that he was not going to renew my prescription for physical therapy.  This was weird to me, since I am still on only partial weight baring and crutches.  So I was surprised, and today was my last day of pt.  I was sad b/c Steven, the physical therapist that I've had since January, wasn't there today.  So some random guy had to discharge me.  I'm gonna have to face book Steven and let him know the news.   But maybe this means that May 11th I will be walking!!! That will be so great :)
Tomorrow I think I am going to go order some invitations for Summer's bridal shower.    The invitation to the right is the one I am thinking about using.  I just thought it was really cute and said that it was a recipe shower, which is what we are doing!  Now I just need to get them printed and addressed!  LOVE planning events like these :)
Well this is all I have for now, there might be more later.



Wedding Showers

Just had a wonderful evening with Summer Leigh.  We met and discussed all things wedding and baby :)  Very exciting!   We decided that the theme for the shower I'm throwing her is going to be a Kitchen theme.  I think I am going to have everyone invited bring their favorite recipe so the new bride will have lots of recipes to cook for her husband!  So fun!  I have already started looking at invitations online and have found some really cute ones!  I need to order them and get started with everything!  I love doing this kind of stuff!
I beginning to tutor a high school kid tomorrow.  It makes me nervous.  I really hope I can remember everything from high school chemistry! hah!
I have started using the weight machines in physical therapy!  This is exciting because I feel like I am actually doing something to help regain the muscle in my leg.  It even felt sore yesterday :)  I have barely gotten to chat with Brad today since he has been studying all day and I have been really busy.  Hopefully we will get to catch up tonight, as I have lots to talk about!  Then again, I always do.
I am definitely getting excited to be a bridesmaid in Summer's wedding.  Love love love talking to Summer because sometimes I feel like she is the only one who truly understands what I am saying...
Well I better get to bed, tomorrow is thursday which means it's Kristin's day to come to Cabot!  YAY!  We are going to go to Target!




I've found that the phrase bored to tears is really true.  Today I was so bored I almost cried.  Really, it was awful.  Last week I was in Fayetteville and was so busy all the time so not that I am back in Cabot doing my usual nothing, it seems doubly boring.  I've gotten a lot of school work done though, so that's a good thing.
Really exciting news is that I found out I got a scholarship I applied for!!  So now I'm committed to teaching for at least 2 years in an at need school, but if I get the same scholarship for my masters program then I will teach for 4 years in an at-need school.  I can't wait!  Really I just can't wait to begin teaching and get to set my classroom up and everything.
In less than a month I will be back in Fayetteville and in Summer school.  I am really excited.  I am going to be taking Spanish and Geology.  I found out last week there are 3 earth science classes I need in order to do well on the Praxis 2.  I think by the time I graduate I will have taken every science class the University has to offer.  Good thing I like them!
This past weekend was both mine and Brad's birthday.  It was so much fun!  On Saturday, Brad got in from camp around 2 and we just relaxed out in Goshen, Brad took a nap next to me while I watched Say Yes to the Dress!  Then the whole family went out to Kobe.  Sooo good.  Brad was excited he got to order his first (actualy 2) beers.  It was really cute..  After dinner all of the girls headed back to goshen while the boys went to help one of Brad's 10th graders get his truck out of the mud.  Then it was cake and present time.  I got to open my presents too since my birthday was on Sunday!  Brad got me CHACOS!!!!  They are soooo cute!  He also got me Reba, Jon and Kate Plus 8 and a really cute PINK nalgene.   He knows me so well :) 
The Brown's made Sunday really special for me.  They are the greatest.  Ms. Stephanie cooked me cinanmon rolls for breakfast (my favorite).  Then we went to church and I got to pick where we went to lunch.  We went to marketplace!   After lunch they surprised me with Rick's cookies.  YUM! They are my favorite!!! I got to take the rest home with me and lets just say that probaly wasn't a good idea.  I'm gonna gain like 20 lbs. from these cookies!  Brad was a great boyfriend and drove me home to Cabot and stayed for dinner and then drove back to Fayetteville.  Seriously, I have the best boyfriend ever :)
Now I'm on the countdown....3 1/2 weeks till I'm back in Fayetteville for good!



Big News!

Yesterday I had another appointment with my orthopedic, and guess what?!  I get to start walking next month!!!  This is soooooo incredibly exciting!  I just can't even imagine how wonderful it is going to be to walk again.  What's even better is that it is just in time for me to move back to fayetteville,  so I will be able to take better care of myself without needing others to do things for me.  This is going to be great!

I am in Fayetteville right now for a whole week!  It's really nice being up here, and getting to see Brad more.  The long distance relationship thing definitely isn't fun.  Last night, Brad decided he wanted to go up towards Bentonville to look at some trucks, so we went to eat at Carrabbas.  Yum!  They give you way too much food though, and I barely ate any of my lasagna because I was so full from everything else.  Oh and we ordered Calamari.  Now usually when we order it, they are just little rings, oh no.  This time they were full squids!  I couldn't eat them, Brad had no problems though! haha...What a boy.  

Today I am meeting Tressa for lunch!  I haven't seen her since Christmas, so this will be fun!  She's going to be a very very busy girl these next few months since she was just crowned Miss Arkansas-International!  Well that's all I have for now!




Wow, I feel like the weddings have finally begun.  I guess it all started last August when Steph got married and now I feel they will all just continue until every one of my friends is married, with me  being the last.  haha!  So in May I have 2 weddings to attend, and then in June one of my very best friends from High School is getting married.  That will be a fun celebration!

So I told her I would throw her a wedding shower.  I know this sounds corny, but I really love planning for things like showers.  It just makes me happy to get to pick out invitations, and a menu etc.  Oh and the centerpieces!! That's fun too!

My birthday is a week from tomorrow! So fun!  I think it's so cool that me and Brad are only a day apart, it's like God made Brad and was then like "ok, I've gotta make Jen now".  Just meant to go together, so perfect :)  On Monday my mom and I are going to Rick's to pick out my birthday cake.  Brad was making fun of the fact that I wasn't letting anyone pick out my cake for me.  No way!  I want to make sure it's cute!!  haha!

Today I had my hair done, again.  Finally, I am back to my old self.  I will NEVER dye my hair dark again.  Just not me!  Plus, it took forever to get all of that color out of my hair.  If someone told me it wasn't a simple process to go back blonde I would have never done it.  

Since TLC is my t.v channel of choice,  I have been seeing all sorts of commercials advertising that Anna Duggar is possibly pregnant.  I really hope that's not the case,  not that they weren't trying, but I just feel she is so young and they are still in their first year of marriage.  They have plenty of time for babies later on!

Well I think that's all I have for now.  I think I'm gonna go wash my hair... I can't stand not washing my hair after I get it done!




Today was such a beautiful day!  I just had to venture outside to get some much needed sun on my legs.  Since I haven't been approved to go tanning yet, due to the lovely scar on my leg, needless to say my legs are pretty pale!  Just sitting out in the warmth of the sun can be such a relaxing, blissful thing.  I just love the summertime when I can go lay out at the pool with a good book.  Perfection!  Last summer I didn't get to do that much, I'm planning on changing that this summer though...now if only I can figure out how to get in the pool using one leg!

Tomorrow is Thursday which are my favorite days of the week because Kristin always comes to visit.  It's wonderful because we always go places, and it's nice having someone besides my parents to visit with!  I think we are going to go shopping for Brad's birthday...exciting!  

I am on countdown until I get to move back to Fayetteville!  While I have enjoyed getting to spend quality time here in Cabot with my parents,  I am ready to get back to my own life!  It makes it even more exciting that Steph and I are moving into a new apartment at the end of May. Can't wait to start decorating!   Well that's all I've got for now!



Beautiful Voices

American Idol just makes me so happy.  Now this is only the second season of it I have ever watched.  Normally, I'm not much of a t.v watcher...but since I spend the majority of my life on this wonderful sofa I watch a LOT of t.v!  I just love Kris Allen.  Of course, I'm probably partial since he is from Conway and Katy's dad works with my dad.  STILL, he is a great singer!  Now having said that,  tonight wasn't his best night.  Hopefully he will do better next week, but I still voted like a hundred times for him and had my mom do the same!  Danny Gorkey also makes me smile!  Every time I hear him sing I just think of everything he has been through.  Talk about perseverance.  

I went up to JBU with my dad tonight to wait on my mom to get off of work.  My dad normally teaches courses there on Tuesday nights.  He is probably the coolest professor I know and I'm not just saying that because he's my dad.  He got there an hour early and was just sitting around joking with his students and giving them pointers on their presentations they had to do that night.  I wish there were professors like him up at the U of A.  I looked my dad up on ratemyprofessor.com but he wasn't there.  Bummer!

Let me just say that I am THRILLED to not have a class until 9:30 a.m in the fall!   It seems science teachers always want to do their lectures early in the morning and so I have always been up at the crack of dawn for those classes.  Not anymore though, now I will get to sleep in until a wonderful 8 a.m.   Ahhh...I can't wait!

Brad has had a really busy week so far.  I don't like it when he has busy weeks because that means our only communication is through texts and short phone calls.  No fun :(  Hopefully tonight we will get to catch up because I have a lot to tell him!  

Good news is that I will be in Fayetteville for a whole week next week!  SO exciting!  I have my doctor's appointment on Monday April 13th so everyone pray for a good appointment!  We are hoping to be able to see bone growth now that I have my handy dandy bone stimulator.  I really feel like it is growing.  Probably the best advice I have gotten throughout this whole ordeal is that I have to know that God will heal me.  Not just hope.  I KNOW God is healing me!!!  I can't wait to be able to see it on the x-rays!

An Early Morning

Today has been...a day.  It started at 6:30 this morning which is when I was supposed to register for my classes for this summer and next fall.  Now let me tell you,  I was upset that I had this late of a registration time.  But oh well, I guess it's better than not having one at all!  Anyway, so I get on to register and half of my classes ISIS won't let me register for.  AHH!  Frustrating.  So many emails later with my advisor I am now ready for summer school and next fall!  YAY!

Well, the hills began last night.  Scripted reality is so confusing to me.   I mean, what's real and what isn't??  It's just too confusing.  Even with all the petty drama though,  I always find myself watching it when it comes on.  That's all I have for now.  Maybe there will be more later :)



Weekend in Fayetteville

This past weekend was just WONDERFUL!!

On Friday, I rode up with Steph to Fayetteville.  She was going to visit Christi for the weekend and I of course wanted to see my man!  It was great getting to chat with her.  I seriously had not "really" seen her since her wedding back in August.  Wow,  I need to become better about keeping up with friends.  Anyway,  she was cracking me up with all of her newlywed chatter.  Makes me realize that for right now,  I'm just content with how things are with Brad and I.  I enjoy dating him!  I know there will be a time for marriage,  but that time is definitely not right now!

Once we got to Fayetteville, Brad picked me up from Christi's, but then he had to go ref :(  I hate it when he has to ref when I'm in town...   After he got back and showered we decided to go to Shogun.  It was great because we got right in and normally there is a 3 hour wait on the weekends.  I was craving sushi all week long, so we ordered 2 rolls.  Yum!  SO good.  Then of course we had to get the traditional Shogun dinner too.  We just can't go to Shogun and not get it.  I had steak and Brad had chicken.  Very typical.  Needless to say, we were STUFFED afterwards.  Around 11 we just went out to Goshen, which is where I stay when I visit on the weekends and chatted with his parents before heading downstairs to get ready for bed.

Saturday morning,  I awoke to his parent's dog, Sasha, running around with my bra in her mouth.  Perfect.  But she's so dang cute that you can't get mad at her.  We had a busy day ahead of us so we went ahead and got ready.  We had to go sign the lease for my new apartment.  I am so excited!  My roommate, Stephanie, was there too so after we got everything squared away at my apartment, we went to eat Mexican.  A definite favorite of mine and Brad's!  Now I hate it when you go to eat Mexican and smell awful afterwards.  We had to go to a wedding after that too, so here I am at this wedding reeking of Mexican food.  It was embarrassing, and of course Brad had to point it out to everyone we sat by.  It was my first wedding reception to go to that had alcohol.  It was exciting!  I definitely liked that reception better, so the drinks will be flowing at my wedding! hah!  After the reception, we went to dinner with the Brown family.  I just love them so much!  Then we went and rented some movies, and just vegged out the rest of the night.  Perfect!

Sunday was a busy day.  It began with church, and since it was Palm Sunday church was pretty packed.   We also did communion, so I had to crutch it up to the front of the church and focus on not falling.  Then we went to eat with the family at Flying Burrito.  Then Brad had to ref, and I had to leave.  I don't like that part of Sundays, but it was nice because I will be back in Fayetteville next Sunday too, so we will only be a week without each other :)

When I got to Conway,  I met my parents at Marketplace.  It was their first time eating there.  I'm not sure how they've never eaten there before, but oh well.  Then we went back to good old Cabot and I was exhausted after the weekend so I pretty much passed out.  Well... that's all I have for now.  Have a great Monday!



View from the Couch

I actually can't believe that is has been almost 3 months since my accident.  Three LONG months of sitting on this couch.  Actually, I have gotten quite used to being here.  I have my moments every now and then that I feel really sorry for myself, or get mad.  But other than that I have pretty much gotten used to being here.  So here are some of my revelations I've had from sitting on the couch.

Tomorrow is never guaranteed.  I am such a planner, I try to plan next week, next year, five years from now, anything but today.  But I've realized that I may not even be here 5 years from now, so I should just learn to live in the present.  When you do that, you enjoy life so much more.

Money isn't everything.  I have some friends who really enjoy saving money.  Now,  I do think you should always have money saved for future emergencies, and if you have a family it is important to save.  But there is a difference in saving for the future, or obsessively saving just because you feel more comfortable because you have a couple grand in the bank.  Let it go!  Have fun, go on a vacation...  You can't take it with you when you leave here!

Don't work at a job you don't love while you're in college.  I began working at a pharmacy, and I really did like my job.  The problem was, I worked ALL the time.  When I did get off work, I was too tired to go do anything.  So I decided it's worth it to me to live on a smaller budget if that means I get to spend more time with friends.

Your way will NEVER perfectly line up with God's way.  Forget trying, you'll never completely figure Him out!  I guess this goes back to the planning thing, don't try to plan too hard.  He will change them.

Pride is a stubborn thing.  Pro bally one of the hardest things to get rid of that pride!  So it's always good to have someone check your reasons for doing things.  Brad does this for me.  He made me realize that the only reason I wanted to go to Pharmacy School, was so that I could prove to people I could do it.  Not good.

Finally,  the older you get, the fewer GOOD friends you have.  I know some will disagree with me.  Those are probably the people who are constantly surrounded by acquaintances and call them good friends.  They are not.  When I was injured, I found out real quickly who my real friends are and they weren't who I expected!  

OK, that's all I have for now.